My Diaries

(Novemver 2017)

November 29

From 10th of November, I have been involved in the design of various web presence for my business in the online finance consulting sector, and a dozen of blogs, social media sites and web sites are developed and updated, and some kinds of compaigns and marketing are being initiated. My presence includes google blogger, google site, google groups, google plus, wordpress blog, facebook and its pages and groups, for my English part, and on the Chinese side, they include a wordpress blog as well as a sina blog, a QQ zone, a Baidu site and Tieba, and Zhihu site.

The English part concentrates on online banking security while the Chinese part spreads over all key issues of the Internet finance industry.

In addition to the above, I have also a blog dedicated to the IC technology development where I will publish some of the most recent technology updates of the integrated circuits, with special coverage of new generations of IC technologies such as graphe circuits, spintronics based circuits, quantum circuits etc.

And now all these preparations are completed and I now can relax a bit, and in the coming days I will gradually improve these sites and blogs with more data and information, better outlook and more userfriendly and customer oriented. That will take tremendous time and efforts of my side. A full scale marketing compaign for these sites and services will consume much of my time.

This is why I couldn't update my diaries over the last two to three weeks here. I hope my diary will return to normal afterwards.

November 21

人生规划

创办一个公司企业需要做计划，就是所谓的商业规划“Business plan”，有一整套复杂的程序，投入大量的时间和精力。然而，至关重要的，生命攸关的人生轨迹，却鲜有人兴师动众地，正规地，严肃地进行规划，投入大量的人力物力。而且，一旦规划好后，应持之以恒地加以实现。其中，应随着形势，年龄阶段等等情况做出必要的调整，但不应全盘否定先前的主要目标。

多数人糊里糊涂过日子，别人怎样，我也怎样。就像一叶扁舟，随波逐流，一个巨浪过来，就成了鳄鱼的美餐。多数人的结局何不如此？我们不是成了这个人的掠夺对象，就是成了哪个人的剥削对象？只是多数人浑然不觉而已。有人说，中国人做奴隶，却感觉像主人；偏偏是奴才，却以主人的姿态出现。

我们不知道我到底要什么？我的人生目标是什么？无论家庭，社会关系，学业和学问，工作和财富，社会地位，健康等等等等，都没有一个明确目标。你想活多久？许多人没有这样的计划。活一天算一天。你想成为什么样的人？帝王将相，才子佳人，富商巨贾？拟或学界泰斗？或则干脆平平淡淡一介农夫，清洁工，性工作者等等等等。你得有个目标。你想成家吗？有孩子吗？交些什么朋友？有成千上万个问题需要你去回答，并在你的一生中逐步处理。无论是主动的还是被迫的。

人生规划使你知道如何避免许多不必要的麻烦，省去许多不该做的事情，以及节约许多浪费的时间。

这是本人以多年亲身经历获得的体验和结论。有没有很好的规划并付诸实施，你的人生将迥然不同。试试看吧！

November 18

不患贫而患不均

孟子曰：民不患贫而患不均,不患寡而患不安。

贫富都是相对而言。数百年，数千年前的君王，按现在的生活水平看，只能属于中等。然而，在其时其地，是绝对的巨富。同样，今日的豪富，在几百年后的后人看来，是赤贫无疑。

所以，比较贫富只能在同一个时间进行。

我没有统计，分析和比较过人类财富分配在数千年时间里的变动情形。总体印象似乎没有一个稳定的趋势。例如，在原始社会，大家几乎财富均等，或差距很少。然后就慢慢扩大。

进入资本主义社会，差距先是加大，然后，呈现二种形态：一种是进入良性循环，差距逐渐减小；而另一种则走相反的路，进入垄断资本主义和权贵资本主义，社会急剧分化。接着贫富差距急剧扩大，社会进步进程停滞。

如此，人类社会的进步，并没有导致社会公平的普遍实现。在貌似最公正的社会，例如美国，贫富差距仍然非常惊人。在权利高度集中的社会，财富当然也高度集中。

然而，这些都不符合天理和天意。大家都是人，都在同一片天下生活，没有任何理由让有些人富可敌国，而另外一些人食不果腹。一个人，如果拥有远远超过同类的财富，应该感到不安，应该为穷人做些善事，以免良心的谴责和不安，否则，有朝一日，上天会发怒。何时，何地以及如何发怒，谁也不知道。

上天创造了我们，是希望我们同享它的创造，而不是由少部分人独占上天的恩赐，而剥夺另外一部分人的份额。

在一个合理的，符合天意的社会，人与人之间财富之差，不应该超过一个合理的距离。从常识来讲，差距超过三倍，就已经是比较大了。

所以，一个符合天理和天意的社会，应该建立一种制度，避免财富差距超过这个限度。至于这种制度如何设计，本人就不再延伸讲述了。

总而言之，没有任何理由让一部分人很富，另一部分人很穷。

November 18

人生的意义

每个人最终都要归于尘土，彻底从这个星球上消失的无影无踪。有多少人在弥留之际会安然处置，死而无憾？但有些人却永远留了下来，比如牛顿，爱因斯坦等。人一生劳作，到底为了什么，到底有什么意义？我认为，人生的真正意义在于你为你所爱和爱你的人带来福祉，幸福和价值，而不在于你为自己带来多少财富，权利和享受。一个以谋取永无止境的物质利益和权利为追求目标的人，最终将以悲剧结束其生命。

 

人类的结局

人类是地球上动物，也就是生物的一种。不幸的是，所有生物和动物都有有限的寿命，而人类并非是最长寿的生物，只有区区几十年。有些生物据称已有数千年的寿命。即使从总体来看人类，迄今为止，也只有数十万年的历史，跟地球据称几十亿年的球龄相差实在太远 - 可以用哈尔滨到海南距离跟足球场的长度相比。在地球几十亿年的历史中，据称可能存在过一次或数次高等文明，也许比我们现今的文明发达许多。如果此次人类文明能存在数亿年或几千万年之久，那么我们现今的人类只是处于这个文明年龄的摇篮期， 甚至于更年幼，只是其整体寿命的千分之一或万分之一。所以，无法想象，当这次文明到达成熟期，人类和地球将是什么样子。不过霍金预料，本次文明只有大概600年的时间。而我本人倾向于认为，只有300年左右的时间。那时，人类将毁于一场核大战。有专家认为，前次文明很有可能毁于一场核大战，而且有些考古证据。

我认为，人类不可能无休无止地发展下去，尤其是如今以西方/美国主导的发展模式 - 也就是那个叫“牛仔 Cowboy” 模式将给人类带来毁灭性灾难。倒是中国过去那种农耕文明是维持人类永久生存的较好模式。没有必要所谓现代科技和各种以摧毁地球数亿年来形成的天体系统为成本建立的所谓现代社会和消费机制。地球无法承载人类无休无止的索求而最后陷于崩溃，就如同贫穷的父母无法承受他们的子女的无休无止的索取而早早离世一样。

 

狂风大作，气温骤降

昨天傍晚四点多的时候出去散步，天气似乎一直在转好。已经连续下了二天中等大小的雨，够了，应该放晴了。人的心情也已经逐渐变坏，盼望雨过天晴。事与愿反，到了晚上十点左右，突然狂风大作，鬼哭狼嚎，6，7级大风一直呼啸到今天早晨6点左右。气温一下子探底到几近冬天。 查了一下天气预报，果然不出所料，气温骤降10度，到最低4度，最高才10度。现在才公历11月中旬啊！不知数九寒冬，会冷到什么程度。 于是早晨起来不得不加厚衣服。本人不喜欢冬天，更喜欢夏天。阳光明媚，行动方便。可是，如今的气候，被暖室效应破坏成只有二个季节，即冬天和夏天，春秋很短，感觉不明显。此地冬天从11月中旬一直延伸到来年三月底，接近5个月之久，非常难熬。

Last evening at about 4:00 I was walking about in the village roads, and it seemed the weather was clearing up and it was expected that we would soon have a nice day tomorrow. It has been raining quite heavily for the last two days, and people were getting unappy with the incessant rains and were hoping it to stop soon.

However, at about 10:00 in the night, suddenly a stormy wind began to blast, and shout from the north, together with the rain, it has blasted till about 6:00 in this morning, and the temperature has dropped by 12 degrees Celsius to 10 degree maximum and 2 degree minimum. The wind is still blowing while I am writing this essay. I feel quite cold now with my hands, and I have to put on more clothes soon after getting up this morning.

The wind was so strong that I dared not to go out for a walk, therefore I stayed at home this morning.

 

Mother

I dreamed of my mother last night, but like most other dreams I couldn't remember what was the dream like. However, one thing is clear that in the dreams, as long as I can see my dear mother, I feel satisfied and happy. Life without mother is lifeless and loveless. Whoelse can take her place? A lady, or my own kids? My brothers and sisters? No, not one of them.

 

My Studies and Research Plans

I have been troubled with my studies and research plans ever since the death of my mother March last year. And I think I shall finalize it now, without any alteration in the future. As my final decision, I will continue with graph theory but I will put less emphasis on it and instead I might spend a little bit more time on IC technologies, or both of them will be treated almost equally with IC slightly higher priority. But overall, I will allocated shorter time on academic activities and instead devote the majority of my efforts to business, which is and will be in the field of online finance and its security. Other businesses such as IC design and consulting, operations research applications and so on will be only serve as standbys.

November 09

Today is a busy day. I've changed the frontpage of the NeoWorld Business Corp website, and from now on, NWB will focus on online finance business, not spread over a wide spectrum of business areas as before. I've prepared for relevant commpaign letters for this business area, as well as revised those for operations research and IC design businesses.

I' ve also updated my personal site, with information about my new business focus as well as studies about IC technologies and operations research. Earlier I've removed IC technologies from my site, and it was graph theory not operations research as my main study topic. Graph theory indeed is still the main research topic, but it will be extended to OR in general, because graph theory is one of the mathematical tools for operations research.

November 08

I set Online Finance as my priority business area, especially security issues in online banking, as I meet them when managing my bank accounts online or transferring money over the Internet with my clients. It's a big issue and needs long time of studies and experiencing.

Meanwhile, as I set operations research, graph theory and combinatorial optimization as among my research topics, I will also resume my business in this field, as my permanent business orientation as well.

And finally IC technologies will also be recovered as one of my business areas, because I will also resume my studies in this field.

Therefore, three businesses - online finance, operations research and IC technologies - will be my final business targets, and will never be changed. Among them, online finance will expect to bring me the majority of income, while the other two are only standby and hobby businesses.

The next step is to decide how to promote my business.

November 07

Time flies. It is now November and pretty soon it will be approaching the year end, and another year without any achievement.

I have received two conference announcements - one from Intel China and one from a local Chinese IC company. But I won't attend their conferences, because none of them stated that they will pay me all the costs for participating in those events. But anyway, that is a bit positive, at least it is a sign that some of my IC expertise are being recognized in the industry.

Therefore I have resumed my IC design activities, according to the original plan and I hope to finish my PC hardware IC design in less than 10 months from now. But I won't hurry up, because it is only my hobby, no fixed schedule, just some vague idea in which timeframe this design might be completed.

Along with IC design, is also recovered my graph theory and related math studies. But operations research may or may not be among my focus there, depending on how big my chance with international companies might be in the coming weeks.

Mr Neubauer in Germany asked me to give him a price indication about solar panels. But it is difficult to get the prices now, without detailed information about the project and some technical specifications. And without close contacts with local suppliers I have no chance to obtain a favorite offer, as was the case 12 years ago, when I have orders in hundreds of millions of Euro but local solar manufacturers still were reluctant to provide me good offers. And the situation now is much worse.

Now it is hard to proceed with my business. Batch mailing is no more working. Other marketing strategies take long long time and huge efforts - a nice blog and its promotion, a social networking accounts and its maintenance, and many more online marketing ways.

Apart from that, it is very difficult to decide what to do now. Power trading relies on many real world experiences, globalization costs too low to receive the orders, operations research is far from being reachable etc etc. What can I do now?