My Diary July 2020 |
July 28 |
Resuming modem IP core design work that is interrupted due to my weakness in body. There has been some pains in my back and waist, and my middle figure of the right hand is a little bent, reason unknown. Reviewed a number of e-books in the field of Matlab design of communications systems especially for modulation and demodulation, incl. AnandkumarMathWorks2015 Designing MIMO-OFDM Wireless Communication Systems p37 I did not read them all in greater details, but just a quick review in order to get a quick impression what and how Matlab can do in modulation and demodulation, so that I am prepared to use Matlab for my later modem IP design. However, Matlab is only one of the many possibilities to design my IP cores, for there are also other options such as FPGA, ASIC, GPU, CPU, and many other technologies. Which one or ones to choose depends much on the application purpose as well as client requirements, therefore I tend to wait until my client places his order to decide on which technology to use, for the decision also greatly impacts on the use of designing, simulation, verification tools - software and development boards etc. As such I would not prefer to design some ready-to-sell IP cores available on my website, because of the various client requirements and the rapid evolution of technologies.
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July 27 |
Yesterday my two high school classmates came to my lodging for a visit. I am very thankful for their visit, because since I come here, I have no visitors at all because at the moment in Hangzhou, I have no other people in my circle of friends. I have lost all contacts in this city after I have moved out of it 9 years ago, and when I came back here, I have no contacts with any one in my previous acquaintants acquired over the 2001-2011 period. My two classmates came here to talk with me about my life and jobs here, but unfortunately they can also not offer any practical helps. I have also an elder and a younger sister and their daughters and sons-in-laws in this city, but they don't recognize me as their oncles. When I come here, none of them noticed me and none of them invited me to their homes. They never asked me where I am residing and how I am living. They guess I am living very comfortably and easily and enjoying my life. They are cold blooded people, therefore I won't consider them as my sisters anymore. I hate their faces and I feel shameful to go to their homes. My mother once said that they are without "Liangxin" or good heart in Chinese. Now there is absolutely no chance to find a job for myself, either as a inhouse translator or a freelance translator. No opportunities as a language trainer or tutor as well. I have sent hundreds of emails to all possible employers in Hangzhou and also alots to companies in Shanghai, but until now there is no offer, therefore I have decided to stop my job hunting forever and ever, not only in China but also in all the world. I will earn my money with my own expertise and I will never work for anyone else. I have German and Germany, especially its current chanceller. She only wants to do business with the dictator in China and ignores the human rights violation of CCP and the extreme sufferings of Chinese people. She will be comdemned bu God sometime, because she helps Satan to surpress the innocent Chinese people when they are demanding external helps to combat the brutal rulers. They are demanding some rights peacefully on the streets, or with their wrtings and speeches, some of the basic rights as humans. The reason why we humans differ from other beasts and why human society developes to a higher degree of civilization while all other beasts don't, is that we humans can speak and write. If we;re not allowed to speak and write, we will be no more different than animals. But the communists have changed Chinese people to Chinese animals. Because I have no chance to win a job of whatsoever and wheresoever, I will concentrate on my business in IC design for satellite communications, particularly the modem part. I will promote this business via my portal as well as other portals in relevant industries. Both in China as well as in other countries, mostly in English speaking websites. This is the only to promote my business. Email marketing is useless, and paid web marketing on major websites such as google is beyond my budget, therefore I can only use some free services. And now I have no freinds in this city, therefore I need to establish my friends circle as soon as possible, not completely relying on my two classmates, who can only come here once a while. I need to have a working group of people with whom I can converse on daily basis. Who can be my friends? One possibility is to find people in the IC industry, but that needs time. Another option is to find people in churches, but my experiences tell me that people in churches are mostly hypercrites, they don't worship God but themselves, they come to churches mostly for their own societal benifits, not for the goodness of God and other people in needs. While I was in Hangzhou during 2005-2011 in church services, dod anyone there provide any help when I was in need? No! Therefore don't expect them give you any helps this time also. I can only find people there with them to chat about some abstract citing of the Bible, some empty words of prayers. They think prayers can replace anything. In my mind prayers without actual actions is useless. You speak out your prayers, then you shall do accordingly, otherwise shut off your mouth! About in mid June I have come to the church where I have served for many years, and I came at the appointed time expecting some of my previous fellow Christians there incl. the elder or the pastor, but I was despaired, because only once person came with whom I have made the appointment. He chose the time that when it ended it was 5:00 pm. I thought at least he shall invite me for a simple dinner, but no! He said good by and then rode away with his e-bike! I came not for the dinner, but it is at least a gesture of respectfullness to offer a meal after the talk because it was the dinner time and also because I came here after a long journey from my home 80 km away. It is very npolite to treat me this way, therefore I will not go to this church again. Instead I will chose other churches nearby, not in the denomination of my previous church. But I am fully aware that I shall not find better people in these other churches as well. The churches and the religious organizations in China and around the world are mostly corrupted, like most other human organizations and groups. They are operating in the name of God but God is not there, God also don't recognize them. In contemporary world, only a very small group of people are truely his beloved ones. I guess this groups account for no more than a few thousands in the entire world. These people are ready to suffer and sacrifice for God's mission. They stand up against the human corruption and call for the world to repent. The Kingdom is coming, the world needs to repen
Today I suddenly completely realized why I am poor in China, because if I am rich in China, China must be a good country, and an normal country, a country with free thoughts and free expressions. But China is not such a country, therefore I cannot prosper and that is logical. I can never prosper as long as I am in China. China does not allow the righteous people to prosper. That's all. |
July 25 |
On July 23, Secretary of State Michael R. Pompeo delivered a historic speech on "Communist China and the Free World's Future" at The Richard Nixon Presidential Library and Museum in Yorba Linda, California. After his official declaration, CCP (Chines Communist Party) has become a US enemy and it's only a matter of time that US will remove CCP from the earth. Chinese people are expected to be liberated from the brutal rules of CCP. |
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July 17 |
Life Experiences Upto today, it is exactly one month that I have stopped writting my diaries, now writing shall be normal. It is worthwhile summarizing what has happended over the last month since I have come here from my home village. This place is to the far west of Hangzhou, within the district of Yuhang, about 20 km from downtown Hangzhou. Is is located at the socalled Liuhe Road, and it is a isolated village turned living quarters, about 400 households, that is about a population of a normal village such as the one of the same size of my home village. Together with all people renting rooms and the surrounding little streets and some companies there are roughly 6000 people within ths sight of the village. Also roughly double of population of my own village in Huzhou. However, shopping is more difficult thant in my home village. There is no central shopping marketplace, only small shops located in the houses of the landlords, therefore there is no big sales stands, and because the supply is limited, and the market size is small and because of its remoteness to nearby market - the nearest market of the Liuhe town is 5 km away - therefore prices here are higher than other places, much higher than my home town. There are of course little choice, little vareity of commodities, in one word, life is not very comfortable here, less comfortable even than in my own village. Living in a small room of about 15 m2 is just like prisoned in a small cell. While in my own house I can move around from down stairs to upstairs from one room to another, here I can only turn around in this small cell of 10m2+. It is very depressing. There is only one tap water pipe located in the toilet, therefore I have to do all my washing there, incl. washing of food and vegetables. Imagine preparing my food in the toilet? There is also no kitchen and the landlord does not allow you to use gas cooker, therefore I have to buy an electric cooker and place it at the little balcony. There are so many inconveniencies that I cannot bear to stay here any longer. But I have no money to rent a bigger room, therefore I have to stay here as long as I am allowed to stay. And noe about my job hunting. Well two weeks before coming here, I have alreay been sending emails to various organizations, companies to inquire about a job possibilities, and now another month is gone, hundreds of emails were sent, without any result. I have only received some kind of replies from no more than 10 companies, received one phone call from a IC tech company and then everything else is stopped. I have tried to work as a translator, a freelance translator, or a language teacher - no response. I have tried to work as an IC designer, no replies. I have tried to work as an engineer in several other fields where I have experiences, no feedback. I have also contacted many companies in the above areas in other cities like Shanghai, and also other countries, no echos as well, excpet one company in Belgium which invited me for an interview, but in Belgium only. How can I get there, and if I fail an interview, who pays me back to China? In addition to sending emails, I have also went to the doors of some of the companies and organizations nearby, no one shows any interests. They said you shall go to the websites to find your jobs. Or they said we don't need your services. There are two language training schools just opposite our village, but they are all closed now. And I have even posted my advertisement on one of the village propaganda boards, but no calls upto now. After one month's efforts it is clear enough now that there is absolutely no chance to get any job, in whatever direction. Therefore I have decided to stop job hunting forever and ever. As far as business is considered, I will also not again take up my linguistic skills, instead I will concentrate on two areas, 1) IC design and 2) fintech and trade.
Last Friday I went out of this village - I have been staying at this village for a month and never went out for a month - and came to the Zhejiang labor market, unfortunately it was almost empty, very few job hunters and very few job offerer. It is clear the job market is dead and will be dead for quite some months. After the job market I went to the library and stayed there for a couple of hours, but I felt quite sick that day therefore I did not talk to any people there, nor went to the hill nearby.
Behind our village there are lots of mountains, and there is a path leading to the hill tip, therefore I am able to climb the hills as frequently as I want. In fact I have been climbing for two weeks, but I feel weak now therefore I have decided to climb the hills only once a week or so. This mountain is very seldomly hunted by the mountaineers, therefore I can only scarecely meet poeple on the hills. Just behind the mountain there is a military campus, an institute of the shipping industry, a banking training school, a telecom company, a huge living quarter under construction, a gas company, and nearby there are several colleges. I will report about my life here in more details over the next weeks.
Faith
Bible Samuel II
Theology Tow2007 Theology for Every Christian p736 page 177
Daily Prayers Oh my God, I am thinking of you all day long, your Grandeur, your Might, your Beauty and your Salvation. Thank God for all your miracles and help me overcome all the difficulties in my life, for I am so weak, both in spirit and in body, that without your support I will fall any time. God my Lord, sustain me while I am weak and encourage me while I am weakened. Thank you my Lord.
Studies and Researches These will be now completely mixed with my modem design for satellite Internet, in the forms of IP cores, which will again take the forms of source codes or netlists.
Languages Listening to Youtube videos in English, French, and German. Reading of literature will be temporarily suspended, until I feel it is necessary.
Businesses Language businesses - translation, tutoring etc will be terminated forever.
Financials
Politics
IT & Communications Infrastructure The website www.angelia.space was completely changed. It is now no more an industrial portal, but a show window of my satellite modem IC design expertise and business operations. How it will evolve in the days to come, is not yet certain. I have backed up all my active files as my routine works - about once a month. |
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