Meine Tagebücher

(April 2019)

April 30

I now fully believe that people are different, even if they are born by the same parents. It is also my case. My brother and sisters care little about my jobs and life, while I am living in that village, but many of my schoolmates, male or female, care a lot for my fate, jobs and income. They give money, console me about my mother's death, look for jobs for me, although there is no solution until now. I will write a whole story about their helps over the last year, and this is indeed very moving. One of my female classmates of middle school has even brought me dozens of clothes for the four seasons.

My younger sister, who is now retired and living in Hangzhou together with her daughter who has just married last week, treats me no better than an outsider, while she treats those met in Hangzhou as her own brothers and sisters. She is just sorts of retired old women who are dancing on the square. Although at her 50's, she is living just as those in their 70's or even 80's. On my leaving day of April 26 of her home after the wedding of her daughter, she invited 6 people to her home, all looking like in their 70's - but I guess their actual ages are no more than 60 years old. Her daughter is very spoiled.

When I was leaving Hangzhou for Huzhou, she never has an idea to drive me to the railway station, while my classmate came to her home and drove me to a scenic spot for a lunch and further drove me to a rendezvous and a dinner. My younger sister is living completely upside down and therefore I will no more consider her as my own sister. The situation with my elder sister is no better. I will not say more about her. My mother said once that her two daughters are not good hearted to her. Therefore mother felt not worth living further and left the world sadly. These two women are the killers of my mother.

I've submitted my application for a modem engineer to Amazon yesterday, but I found my application was turned down today already. It seems if I don't have an US citizenship, there is no way to acquire an US job. OK, I will try non-American jobs. I will do something great in the future, and I will not help US companies to gain competitive advantages in the world scene. I am sure I will be a great man pretty soon. I was very competitive in the past, why not now and in the future? With my expertise and competencies, I am able to compete against anyone in the world.

I will resume my German and French again, in an intention to talk with people in these languages. I am planning to get out of the pit and return to the world, although I've lost interests in this world long ago, because this is a wicked world, not worth living. GOD will destroy this world sooner or later. I will return to this world because I need to do something for my schoolmates who are so good to me so that I can't pay back them, otherwise my name will be contaminated. My reputation is much more important than my position or money.

April 28

From April 23 to April 26 I have been to Hangzhou to attend my niece's wedding at the Hangzhou International Hotel. The second day, on April 24, my middle school classmate, Xu Jianhua, has picked me up at the Xidang Garden, a living quarter where I was temporarily residing and he has driven me a scenic spot in the west side of the Westlake, and we have had a great tee lunch there. We have that chance to talk about our life after 41 years separation since the days of middle school. Afterwards, we went to meet my church brother who was busying with his engineering projects at a big building belong to a local electric power utilities. But he was too busy to talk with me, therefore we have to leave him there and headed up to a restaurant where we will further meet our female middle school classmate and enjoyed our luxurious dinner there.

The next day I went to the local bureau for public security, and applied for a passport or rather for a renewal of my old passport that will expire in July. The application was fairly quick. And then I have time to go to the local human resource market, but there was no hiring events there. I went further to a electronics market and bought a U plug, costing me RMB 90. There was plenty of time left before my appointed time with my friend. I have my lunch at the McDonalds, and then have my eyes inspected at a local eyeglass shop located at the Zhejiang University's Yuquan campus. I waited there for nearly an hour and then my new glasses are there. I paid 700 Yuan for the new eyeglasses.

It was about 1:30 or 2:00 in the afternoon and I still have 5 hours to wait for my rendezvous with my friend. Therefore I have no other choice than to go up the little mountain behind the Zheda Campus and loitering there for nearly 4 hours, before receiving a phone call from my sister, who has forgotten her home keys, therefore I have to meet her at the north door. While running down the steps of the hill, I met with my friend with whom I have an appointment this evening. The we returned back to the ground together and after I have handed over the keys to my sister we returned again to the campus, talked about business and life a bit, and then ate our dinner there and finally we have to depart one form the other.

On April 26 I have gain to go to the public security office, to inquire if I change my address so that I can receive my new passport myself, otherwise I have to go back to Hangzhou again to sign the reception. But they told me that I don't need to, in stead I can just tell the postman to call my appointed person - for example my sister - to receive my passport in lieu of me. That settled I again went to the labor market, but there was only few stands there, in the category of construction and architecture, nothing to do with me.

Disappointed, I bought some bread for my niece and returned home, waited for the lunch which was a banquet of my sister with her 6 other mountaineering man and women. At one o'clock I left my sister and headed towards the eastern railway station and at 15:18 I was able to go aboard the express rail at a speed of 303 km/h to Huzhou.

When arrived at Huzhou Railway Station, there came suddenly strong and cold air, and temperature dropped suddenly by at least 10 degree, and I have to put more clothes on. Fortunately I have taken with me some extra clothes in order to combat this kind of capricious weather.

At 4:30 my middle school classmate, this time Zhou XIngfa, drove his car to picked my and Xu Jianhua together. Xu has just arrived at Huzhou from Changxing, although via express railway. He works at the Railway Company ever since his graduation.

We came to a restaurant, and over there we were joined by 14 other classmates, and we could enjoy a rich dinner hosted by Zhao Danping, our female classmate, who is a high profile medical doctor at the No 2 Hospital of the Zhejiang University. At the beginning Danping gave me an envelop which contained a bunch of paper money. Two days later when I opened it and counted it, it was 2000 RMB! I have broadcasted to my classmates that no one shall further donate money to me already last year, but they continue to give me money, even after I've earned some 5000 USD last year out of my translation project with an American company.

It was about 10 o'clock in the evening when I finally returned to my humble home in a small village in the southern Huzhou city.

The traveling to Hangzhou and back was a very tired one, because I could not sleep well while at my sister's home. Even today, after night's sound sleeping, I am still feeling very tiring and dizzy.

Now after meeting and talking with my schoolmates and friends, I have got some more suggestions and ideas, but not that much. Anyway I shall make some decisions to decide what will be the next strategy to overcome my difficulties and get out of poverty. God help to do that.

April 13

I have sent hundreds of application emails to German companies throughout China, incl Shanghai, Hangzhou, Ningbo and Suzhou, just in vain and anger. No offer has come me so far, waste of my time. My carefully written emails in German as well as the text named "Mein Weg zur deutschen Sprache" - in English "My Road to German Language" all failed to raise their interests, although in the later text I've praised the German nation to a degree of exaggeration. I am completely disappointed by them, therefore I once gain determined not to continue with my German language and instead I will once again write my diaries and anything else in English, unless there is a chance from a German organization or person.

I am trying to sell my recently configured report called China IC Monthly Report online, but I can't find any website to sell it. The only one I have registered for sale is amazon.com, but it limits the sale price to US$200, and it also subtract nearly 40% of the price for their commission. It is not an ecommerce site, it is a robbery site. No wonder why Bezos has become the richest guy in the world, because he robs our money. I won't do business with Bezos in any circumstances.

However, if I can do some business with the largest companies or the richest people in the world, I will be myself climb to the top people of this planet. But how? What kind of services or products I may provide them with? I do not produce any physical products, what I can provide is either my expertise or some kind of digital products such as a report. It's difficult to figure out a strategy and plan.

On the part of trading for airplanes, yachts, power generation equipments and the like, it is almost unable to find the domestic demands now. Export from China is not the thing I want to do, because by increasing China's export I am also enriching the Chinese government and impoverishing the Chinese people, me included.

I will seriously develop my angelia.space satellite broadband modem ip core design site, and for this purpose I've purchased a VPS yesterday, so that I can host my site there with enough computing and Internet capacity. I will make it the best web portal about modem IC design, particularly the satellite broadband modem ip core design.

All over China there are slogans about combating the socalled underground society. It is obvious that the anti communist movement is now at the nationwide scale and poses great challenge to the communist rule in China. The underground society is not the criminal groups but the anti-communist groups who are against the rules by the most terrible regime in the world - the communist Chinese government. This government, if not wiped out from the earth, will threat the human society in the entire world and will eventually lead to the destruction of civilization. Because communist is anti civilization. Unfortunately the socalled democratic western world is happily working together with the Chinese communists in order to earn big money from and to exploit the common Chinese people, those capitalists and bankers in Wall Street, and Washington DC, London, Berlin, Paris, Tokyo, Moscow, Sydney, Ottawa etc.

It was reported that all landlords in Hangzhou are obliged by the local authorities to install monitoring cameras in their home leased out to lenders. This is a terrible policy of the Chinese government to completely ignore the privacy of the Chinese people and violate the basic needs of human dignity and rights. If such a rule is applied nationwide, the entire country will become a prison. I can't imagine how this government dares to enforce such kind of anti-human policy.

Fruit prices are abnormally high at this time of the year. Apple costs RMB 7 half kilo or about US$ 2.5 a kilo. In China everything else is expensive except labor costs.